Here we are everyone. It is 2008. 2007 has come and (thankfully) gone. It was a tough year for so many reasons. I won't get into that, but I will say that 2008 may prove to be the most important and eventful to date...
Seeing how this blog very much revolves around nostalgia, I will begin this post by telling you all that I spent an hour today trying to get my old HP Pavilion to boot up. It was actually quite an exciting ordeal. I was doing this so that I could grab an old track Brad and I had made back in 1998. We had put out an album on the since deceased MP3.com entitled 'First Impressions' by Brike and on that album were are few filler tracks with characters we created playing out situations that were not funny or interesting except for the fact that we slowed it down slightly to make us seem older (and more important, I suppose). The files I was searching for were the original versions of those tracks. I say 'original' because the versions on the 'First Impressions' album were edited so that we could, in fact, make some good first impressions. Let's just say that the originals included some...
very inappropriate material. Stuff ranging from a small child being raped by a man from Russia to an audio pornography about a southern gentleman (phrase used very loosely) beating someone to death... We had very vivid imaginations.
Anyhow, after realizing that the computer was fine, but the hard drive itself was fucked, I gave up and left the WD HD outside the tower for me to possibly repair at a later date. I forget why I decided to tell this story, but what I will say is that it was another in a long string of nostalgic activities I have blogged about.
Yesterday was the first dome practice for baseball. This is something that shouldn't be as important to me as it is. I have a lot of work to do on this upcoming shoot called 'One Simple Life' that I have yet to finish and I still need to figure out where I will be calling 'work' after May. I can't stay at the P2 lab any longer. Granted, it is sort of a sweet gig, but it is not flexible and doesn't offer any type of benefits (which I am in dire need of). I also should be aspiring for more than $13,000 a year at this point (college grad, slightly intelligent, people and technology savvy...).
Vicky and I have hit another turning point (this one scarier than the rest) and I think we have come out okay, but it is too soon to judge. I need to learn to not be a prick all the time. When things are good, they are delicious and when they are bad, they are NOT delicious. I lamented about the necessity of a serious relationship a few months ago on this damn blog and now am realizing that it is probably a bad thing that I don't even remember saying such things. This past semester has been a debilitating personal blur and I cannot believe some of the shit that happened. I commend Vicky's determination and loyalty, but I wonder if it is well-placed. Love yourself before you can love others, I suppose I'd better keep reminding myself. We are going to Alaska in May (I believe) and I am hoping we will have put a rough 2007 WAY behind us...
I really need to decide if I can sign up for another gym membership because I have topped 200 pounds for the third time in my life and my body is still crying about the first time this happened...
I want to write more this year. I am not inept when it comes to words and I am an expert when it comes to internalizing problems. This combination should make it impossible for me to STOP writing. I just need the right environment/state of mind I suppose. A lot of supposing going on in this post... I also need to read more. I started doing that this past summer and got too busy to continue. It was enjoyable and relaxing. I'll need that.
A few things to keep in mind as I begin my 24th year on this planet.
Now Playing: Erin Lang - "You're Coming Home"
