2.28.2005

Rabbitt, rabbitt...

Well, I was able to do it. I said "Rabbitt, rabbitt." When I was about 10 or 11, Nickelodeon told me that would be good luck as the first thing to come out of your mouth in that month. March 1st. Rabbitt, rabbitt. Spring break. Rabbitt, rabbitt. Midsummers. Rabbitt, rabbitt. My birthday. Rabbitt, rabbitt...

Anyway, no new dreams yet, Matt. You'll keep your mind's eye, yet. I'm gonna go play THUG after I finish my work. Maybe I'll have some more good dreams.

Now Playing: Tom Waits - "Goin' Out West"

2.21.2005

What?

That last post told the tale of a story that had a plot that was completely fictional in every way I know...

What?!

...

But yeah, I had my first dream with Sonja as a member of the supporting cast. Man, it was an intense dream. I was aware of the fact that I was inside a video game that I had designed. All movements were similar to that of THUG2 (Can you say "day residue"???). After stumbling through the back end of a kohl's or target-esque store, I showed Sonja (very nervously, I might add) where the shower was, and how to use it. It was a unique shower... in that it needed explaining... Once she was in, I was contemplating joining her, but decided against it. After turning to go out, I heard her say "Mike." Excitement!

"Could you pass me the shampoo?"

Oh. I got the shampoo and bent down to pass it to her through the doggy-door and then caught a clear glimpse of her completely nude... Intense... Hella intense...

After that, I stumbled out and onto what appeared to be a multi-leveled roof with wood shingles. I was pushed by something or someone and, in THUG motion, fell off the roof, hitting the edge of each of it's levels until I landed (like you would after wiping out in THUG) on a Japanese baseball diamond. After I stopped rolling into play, I saw a chubby Japanese baseball player running down the first baseline towards my limp (and in-play) body. When all of a sudden, all movements turned into that of Acclaim Sport's "All Star Baseball 2003." More day residue.

This was when I think I woke up... Nonetheless, after over a year of imaginative celibacy, I have been having sexually-oriented dreams very often. Thankfully, these arent really the type that cause me to wake up disturbed and scared like the ones I was having right after Erin and I broke up. These are actually playful and enjoyable (not in the obvious manner, you. Get your mind out of the gutter). These are fantastic.

There was one a week or so ago where Erin and I were on an empty cruise liner. On each side of the ship (bough???) was a row of make-up cubicles like in a theater's green room. At the very end of these rooms were showers with blue and white mosaic tiles... This one was the most erotic by far... Oh, man. How I miss touching her. Wow. A lot of my intense dreams have to do with showering...

Saw Constantine on Saturday.

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What?!

Now Playing: Sunny Day Real Estate - "100 Million"

2.09.2005

If Only Tori Amos Were My Wife...

Heyall. Two things.

- Midsummer Night's Dream. Be there. Oakton. DesPlaines. St. Patty's Day - April 3rd. Puck/Philostrate = Me.

- I've decided to bring up something Sonja asked me about way back in November; us being in a relationship. My feelings for Erin aside, everything seems like its the right thing to do. I will, of course, ask Sonja how she feels about my situation with Erin. However, this does not mean that I'm "asking her out" (to put it in HS terms, I suppose), merely that I want to know if she is still interested in the concept of being with me. If she is, then we're gonna have to sit down and iron a few things out.

How will this affect my relationship with Erin, though? What will it make us? Will it completely ruin anything we have together? I know its the only real way to test our friendship, but I mean... Jesus.

Still, its kinda ironic that in the last 4 years, I've been interested in three girls. Two of which are basically the same person. And the other being the one that made me the happiest guy on earth for three years and then quickly the saddest guy that same earth for the next year.

That was an awful paragraph... I apologize.

Now Playing: Tori Amos - "Strange"