Future Imperfect...

Don't ask me what made me come back to this blog. Could it be the fact that my immediate future is being decided in the floor above me at this moment? Could it be that the possibility of moving back to Chicago has me feeling a bit nostalgic? Who knows. Maybe it's just that work has completely dried up for me out here in Los Angeles and I have absolutely nothing better to do than to talk out my frustrations via the ever-present ear that is this digital journal. Sending my textual musings through the vast web of information is a perfectly over-complicated way of venting. So, interwebs, get ready to by my screaming pillow...

Vicky is currently in the middle of the ladder-half of the interview process for a paid internship back in Chicago at a highly respected advertising agency. If she gets it, she moves back to Niles and works 50 hours a week in downtown Chicago. I originally said that I would only follow if I could find steady work in Chicago myself. Whether that be through the Camera Prep Tech position I was offered last year or continuing to work freelance, I should have seen that it was a completely empty statement. I've been fed up with this industry out here for a while now and would gladly accept a move back to a place I know I can start over. It's a pathetic realization, but at least it's an honest one. I hope she gets this job.

I have done more than survived since I got out here. I am not living in complete destitution, I am actually quite comfortable with a few luxuries that I didn't have even back home. However, gigs are so few and far between that I have not once felt as though I've contributed anything positive to the business I want so badly to be a part of. The gigs I do get are complete artistic cul-du-sacs and serve no purpose other than to keep food in my belly. I shouldn't complain. It's the time we live in. Anyone and their brother can gain access to high-end equipment and 'make movies' now and this leaves us legitimate artists in a sticky spot... Ugh.

I've enjoyed my time in L.A. mainly because I know how to have a good time around good people. Thankfully, I seem to be surrounded by a surplus of those people, just not on set. Perhaps one day, we'll all band together and create excellent, profitable contributions to the world of art...

That day can't come soon enough, unfortunately.

Now Playing: Billie Holiday - "What a Little Moonlight Can Do"