Oh yeah...

So, I am not normally near Michigan & Harrison on tuesdays, but I needed this dumb fuck of a book for my I'M-NOT-NEARLY-INTO-HUMAN-RIGHTS-ENOUGH-AND-I-FEEL-
NOT-TOO-GREAT-ABOUT-IT class, so I had to get off the red line @ Harrison on my way home from my HIS of Cinema class. On the way, there is a place called Chicago Carry-Out, a place where I see a lot of Columbia folk eating and hanging out. Well, this was the first time I've ever been around there on a teusday, and as I'm walking very quickly, who do I see out of the corner of my eye??? LYDIA FUCKING ZAJAC. Gorgeous as ever (although she and Nicole are probably the only girls I've ever thought looked better as a blonde), sitting there talking with a friend! I totally am thrown off by this and open-mouth gape at her through the glass... AS I'M STILL WALKING LIKE A MAN ON FIRE. So she looks up because there is a creepy guy burning holes in her face through the window and immediately recognizes me and we both start laughing! I, for some reason (probably because I was in a hurry to get my book before the book store closed), didn't even flinch and kept on walking.

Well, on the return trip, I was kinda expecting her to still be there, so I got all cool about it and as I walked by again (I knew she'd probably be expecting me to come back), we shared another laugh, only this time I actually had the presence of mind to wave and give a "Hope-to-see-you-around-because-I'm-not-stopping" look.

Anyway... You should have felt what I was feeling when this whole ordeal went on. Man, it was like I was a sophomore (pre-Erin, ofcourse) again! I felt like I was walking past her lunch table on my way to tell Mariko what a creepy scaredy cat I was for not having the balls to just talk to the girl! It was a glorious feelin, lemme tell you. I got the works, man... Sweaty palms, faster pulse, hair standing on end... Whew!

...

Then I remembered that this was the exact reason dating her was soooo much less fun than pursuing her. I never, in my life, have been part of a chase like hers. I had this insatiable crush on her like you wouldn't believe and the act of pursuing her was so... consuming... in all aspects... It was the kind of thing that made a kid feel alive... And I got that again today...

This was also most likely the reason I didn't stop to talk to her. I wanted this feeling to last as long as possible. If I went in there to say "hi," I would've left all disappointed like when we broke up almost 5 years ago. She really wasn't exactly my type nor were either of us very compatible, so dating her wasn't nearly as fun as wooing her.

But, man, that feeling of excitement came rushing back to me like I haven't felt in... too long...

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