Oops...

Wow. So I definately got drunk for the first time last night.

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That is never happening again. The reason? All of them. I had a fraction of the control I am used to having which basically kept making me cry. The two people I was with were trying to talk to me and I would randomly burst into tears lamenting the fact that it was wrong of me to take part in this. Its not that I was pressured into it, because I definately had a motive to do what I did.

I wanted them to shut up.

Well, I think I more than justified my hatred of alcohol and I cannot even be happy that I got it out of the way because of all the bad shit that happened. "Bad shit?" you ask... Too fucking bad, thats all you're getting.

I remember every single thing that happened because my brain was working @ regular speed, but my body was reacting in ways that were out of my control and was not responding to my head. This morning was totally different; my body was willing, but my brain was not having it. It was an odd sensation. I felt as though I had just spent an hour spinning around looking upwards and couldn't keep my balance (wow Mike, what a cliche description).

I remember clearly (though I don't know if anyone heard me or understood me) saying "What will Erin think?" Why? I know that now I feel strange because if people were to read this, their perception of me would change. This doesn't bother me, so don't think that it does, its just something that I've been aware of.

I did way too many shots for my first time being drunk. But frankly, I've drank before, and I'm pretty sure I did just enough to get me drunk. So I'm unsure as to whether or not there is a range between tipsy and plastered. Because I went straight from being completely sober to not being able to stand without falling over (which I did three times and coincidentally were the only funny moments of the whole night...

All in all, it was an awful experience and I'm sorry it happened. I'm glad it was with the people it was with to a point, but lets just say it could have been a lot better... And it could have been a lot worse...

How does the song go?

"4 shots of brandy,
3 shots of whiskey,
3 shots of gin,
a bottle of water
and you're up for falling down..."

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