1:01 a.m.

Well folks, my semester begins this morning...

I did absolutely nothing this break. NOTHING... Oh well.

In any case, I get reunited with Sonja in class tomorrow morning and we may end up getting together for a read through of "A Midsummer Night's Dream" in preparation for her first Shakespearean audition. I'm excited for her as well as myself. I have a few new ideas for the way I deliver the dialogue this time around, and I have a really great relationship with the director, so all should be well.

In other news...

It's been one year since Erin and I separated... I'm not over her.

My thoughts drift to her almost predictably every night. Yet each time they do, it feels new and wonderful. Warmth surrounds my body. I feel so comfortable with myself when I think of her. I wish I could bottle that feeling and give it to the world because it would cure so much, it really would... But inevitably my horrid imagination runs wild and I end up with insomnia everynight, trying to stop the madness my mind creates until I eventually collapse at about 5:30 every morning. I wake up exhausted and sometimes can't even get out of bed. This is not typical for me. I'm used to being able to pop right out of bed and enjoy the fact that I have a whole day ahead of me.

I wish I could fall asleep during the moment in which I feel warm and loved. However, its always the cold, betrayed, and cast-aside feeling that ends up using me as a blanket.

As much as it pains me... I don't want to get over her... You're everything to me, Erin. You're too much to me, Erin.

Now Playing: Nick Drake - "Things Behind the Sun"