In Search of Advice...

Hey ya.

Well, I've been on the otherside of the ball lately. Usually I'm excellent at giving advice. I'm the guy you go to for good, impartial guidance. Now that I've reached a point in my life where I really need to start making decisions regarding my life rather than those of people around me, I'm pretty much lost. I have even put myself in the shoes of someone looking for advice from me. I wondered what I would say to someone in my situation and I have failed every time. I'm not going to get into the advice I need as far as romance and personal relationships are concered, but I am worried about my choices as far as career and extra-curricular activities.

Last summer, after a simply dreadful season of Oakton baseball, I made the decision that it was time to move on from competitive baseball. I called the coach and told him that I would not be returning. Frankly, he was one reason I had decided to call it quits. It was unlikely I would have even been a blip on the radar for him anyway, but by calling him, I ruled out even getting a shot at playing with the team in 2005.

I made this decision because I felt I had to. I was not happy with my life at that point and I thought being focused on baseball was part of that unhappiness. I am now realizing that I may have made a big mistake. I plan on speaking with the coach (basically begging)about getting a look for a roster spot. He would not question my commitment I don't think, but I don't know if there is even an openning on the infield.

I saw what kind of players he got this past season to replace the bulky, steroid-injected meatheads we had last season and I wasn't really impressed. Oakton is going through a rebuilding process (well, the community college version of one anyway) and I have been told by some guys I knew on the team that they are desperate for help. Nonetheless, I want a shot...

And this is where the conundrum comes in.

By playing ball (lets say I make the team), I would rule out being in any plays until next fall. Considering this is the career field I plan on choosing, taking almost a year off of acting is not a good idea. I am torn. I have visions of playing ball at a higher level than even college and yet I am certain I can perform on stage with the best of them.

I need advice... Or a sign. A broken leg. A torn ACL. Getting shot in the voicebox. Anything. Any sign right now would help me. But since I'm me, I can't find any good advice.

Now Playing: Oval - "Commerce Server"

Sorry, the hectic caidence of this song kind of caused that last paragraph. But I kinda do mean it... In some way.