*Insert Meow-Mix Theme Song here...*

Thats right blogmates, I got my car back. It feels like a brand new 13-year old car again...

Anyway, I have naught to talk about other than I chatted it up with Mariko for the first time since graduation the other day, the Cubs swept the Houstons, and I started summer courses on monday. Holy shit, I have a lot of writing to do this summer. Is it worth it to get out of Oakton a little faster?...

YES.

Considering my summer is already guarenteed to be a huuuuuge faliure, I think filling it with writing about history will sompensate a bit. I mean, I don't have any friends to consistantly hang around with. Y'know what... I take that back. I hang out just the same as I did in highschool. Whats missing is Erin. Is she a punisher, or what? What am I being punished for? Same thing as always. Being naive. I open the gates to everyone, and let 'em do whatever the hell they want when they get in. And y'know what? I'm not gonna change. I figure, yeah, I have no true friends now, but I still have that slim chance that someone will treat me the way I deserve. Whereas if I changed into a person who doesn't let anyone in, yeah, I'll never get hurt, but I won't be any happier.

Erin is in Ireland right now. I've heard the bullshit line about caring and love so many goddamn times from so many goddamn people lately, that its as common as "Hi, whats up?" In my head, I just continue to replace it with, "I love you. I care for you. Don't expect to hear from me anytime soon." Because thats what everybody is saying.

I watched one scene from this bullshit Katie Holmes movie today. "Abandon" I think it is? Anyway, when she meets this guy for the first time, they sit in his room (she is only a little freshman or something and he is an older, very confident and very typical college guy) and he goes through her notebooks and says very arogantly "You're a virgin. Nobody this organized has time for sex." The next shot is him throwing her books out the window (ooooh, deep symbolism and foreshadow here.), saying some cheesy ass, rebelious equivilent to a pick-up line, and then they proceed to fuck...

Oh, I'm sorry, this is EVERY FUCKING MOVIE ABOUT COLLEGE.

You can't change who you are... Unless you go away to college, I guess...

Now Playing: The Walkmen - "Hang on Siobhan"