Well...

Valentine's day.... Forgive me if I refrain from jumping up and down for joy. I am basically isolated from everything and everyone at the moment. The day came and went with me talking to none of the ones I give a rat's ass for.

To top it off, my brother is off drinking and I am left to wipe the dust away from my seldom-used blog and tell the world of my wonderous day.

My brother certainly has it good. He is living with the woman he loves and he is lucky enough to be at one of the top universities in his field of engineering with a future. Nevermind all that. Though I am young, and well ahead of my self as far as a breakdown goes, this shady mask of feigning happiness to please those around me is not something I wake up in the morning to with a bright smile. I've just been thirty years old since I was fourteen and now that I've formed some meaningful relationships, they've begun to break down because of it.

So, Valentine's day has come and gone, and while I know not if the woman I love has gotten her flowers or not, I continue to sit and listen to this and it gives me visions of grassy hills that stretch vast with no one but me to sit upon.